I've learned many things over the past two months, but the most important may be the realization that there's no need to rush. I'm here now, whether or not I've showered, brushed my teeth or changed clothes!
There's been a day to day consistency over the last 8 weeks that is unprecedented in my lifetime. This has revealed little pleasures like the joys of reading haiku, listening to ambient music, reading an entire book series (Bosch), or trying to gain some understanding of a mind-body-spirit practice like qigong. It feels like a new age.
There's been no fear of missing out FOMO because you're not missing out. As an introvert who is almost always more comfortable at home than at a social situation, I no longer have to feel weird about not having things to do, and/or I don't have to feel anxious about being invited to that rare dinner party that I didn't really want to go to in the first place. I don't have to wake up hungover the next morning because of some stupid decision to walk to the bar around the corner.
Maybe you're not supposed to "look forward". I don't know. But one of the things I look forward to the most right now is a weekly nature walk. If it's a Saturday evening and I'm planning on going for a hike early the next morning, the last thing I want to do is jeopardize that by drinking the night before. In no way would that enhance the experience.
I'm OK with concerts and other big events being postponed right now. When they do resume, if I am to participate, I want to approach this experience from the same perspective as that nature walk. I want to be able to look forward to these events, and not feel angst, knowing that they are going to be worthwhile, positive experiences before, during and after.
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